You are one special special girl.

Today is 22nd May 2012.
没有baby的第一百二十六天。
It is the 126th day after our breakup.
I just had dinner wif my baby a few hrs ago. I really hope baby will not be so sad when she wakes up in the morning. I know she is very stressed and scared about her exam nxt wk. I was so helpless when she called me earlier in the day. Baby was crying and telling me she does not 1 2 study le. It pained my heart so badly. How I wished I could hug her tightly and comfort her and tell her everything is fine.

Baby baby... Please dun ever doubt yr own ability. You are one special special girl. You have brains, the most angelic & sweetest face, the cutest n happiest character, the most bubbly personality and a body that can kill all men on earth. What more do you want? Never say u r stupid or dumb ever again. You are definitely not. All you need is just concentration and self belief. As long you can have the correct mindset and determination to study, you will be able to pass it. Put your heart and soul in to study if you really 1 2 try the paper. I know you so well. Nothing is 2 hard 4 you. Tell yourself you can make it and simply do it k. Jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!!

I have absolute faith in you! You are the best baby! 我好爱你。好想抱你。永远都不放开。

It is May 2012, time passes so so so quickly.....

Today is 1st May 2012.

没有baby的第一百零五天。

It is the 105th day without baby by my side.

I still remember on the very same day 7 years ago, I told baby I like her alot. I was on duty in army. I remember vividly tat I was trembling when I told baby i like her alot. I was so silly. I told her I want to be her 小白. Baby was so shocked. She never expected that I would declare my feelings for her so suddenly. She dare not reply and I was so sad. I could not sleep that whole night. I kept checking my phone hoping that baby wld reply me. I was so worried that I had lost such a gd fren. Luckily, baby replied me the next morning but she told me we would be betta off as frens. I was really sad but also relieved that baby did not choose 2 ignore me.

Forward 7 yrs to today, here I am tinking and missing baby so so so much. I juz saw baby's facebook post ytd. She was so looking forward to yesterday and she said it will be a happy day. I guess her boyfren must have brought her out and she was so happy that she could spend the day with him. I am really jealous. Super duper jealous. However, I really hope that baby will be happy and I know once he has time 4 baby, she will be super happy and will not contact me.

I totally understand baby. I was not the guy she loved right from the start. She already loved him so much even b4 we got 2gether. Love cannot be forced. I know baby will do anything for him as long as he says it. That is how much she loves him. All I hope is he really treat baby well and will not toy with her feelings and throw her aside once he has enough of her.

Baby... I really hope you will be back to your original happy and genuine self. Stop being another person 4 the sake of him k. B yrself. Find back yourself and b truly happy! I 1 you to find back that bright sparkle in those beautiful eyes of yours.

I hope you are sleeping soundly. Have a good sleep.

I love you. I really do.

"If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we're apart
If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me
The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much
I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you"